Chrm...

[qantaqa]

Weeks and weeks without an entry, and now I'm spamming your f-lists.
Sorry... ;D

Today I started playing Assassin's Creed. Got the first part from a friend and decided to play it before dealing with the second one. Guess it's better to do so, since there's reference to the first one...
I'm still having problems with the controlling, but I hope that'll get better soon. It's been a while since I played games on computers. Having a controller is quite another thing.

Hah.. this evening should've been a nice one, bbq with the Latin-group in a little kind of park near Kristin's home.
All was fine.. until the twilight came.

Yes, I am deadly afraid of those damn fuckin oh my god I hate you so much cockchafers (Mai- bzw Junikäfer).
And yes I thought the hard part was over since the night at the Völkerschlachtsdenkmal when there were pretty much.
But today... holy shit, I never saw this many of them.
Never.

And I know that this is bullshit but it seemed they'd been chasing only me.
The last times I've been running from them and yeah, sometimes I screamed, too.
But.. oh fack, today I thought I was dying. Literally.

I screamed and cried and ran from them.
Guess I had a fit.
I couldn't breathe properly and started choking.
And I screamed, screamed, screamed.

I donnu how long it took my friends to realize, that my  begging for "Help, help HEEELP" was real.
Seemed like forever... maybe it was an hour? I donnu.

I'm sorry when I creeped you out, but it never was that hard to deal with it.

Those fuckers don't realize that we are human, they think we're trees. Oh well, I don't care. I don't want to see them, to hear them and holy shit not to feel them.

I really fuckin thought I was going to die.
Donnu if this fit was caused by my current psychological instability, but the ugliest thing was, that no one came to help me.

Yes, the last time I scolded one of them, because he was laughing and I thought he meant it in a bad way, but holy fack I was screaming for help like someone who's about to be assassinated and still nobody seemed to care.
Until I "please, please, please"d and finally Anna and Sophie came.

Fack.

I'm sorry if I scared you or anything, but the next time, pls hold me and put me to the ground.. it would be okay to even tackle me down.
But I don't want to run around like the insane bastard I was tonight feeling as if everything's going to end.

Shit. I mean it. Holy shit.

I needed like another hour to calm down completely.
Thomas said I must have lost like hundreds of calories... haha I could think of quite a better way to do sports.
Bah.
I don't want to experience that again. Never ever again.

Well that's pretty it.

Just a question: Is there anything out there that makes you act like someone completely nuts?
Like spiders, buttons, squares... or something?

I hope I'm not the only one that gets this... whatever.

Comments

[azamir.livejournal.com]

Das is total scheiße wenn Leute so ne Viecher-Phobie nicht ernst nehmen. ich bin auch teils-krabbeviecher-phobisch, und wäre ich von einer horde maikäfer attackiert worden, hätte ich wahrscheinlich ne ähnliche reaktion gehabt wie du... erst recht wenn mich so viecher übberaschend umfliegen, überaschend anfliegen oder plötzlich an mir hochkrabbel >.< !!!!!!

Mich kotzt es auch an, dass andere Leute immer nur so daneben stehen und meinen "jetzt reg dich doch nicht so auf, sind doch nur kleine insekten!!!" - ich WÜRDE mich NICHT aufregene, wenn ich KÖNNTE!

hab mir schonmal wegen ner biene, die meinte beim frühstück direkt neben meinem ohr entlangbrausen zu müssen, den hals verrenkt - not nice.

*hugs you*

[silberblut.livejournal.com]

Ja ist es u_U.

Das war fast noch schlimmer als die Käfer an sich. Ich hab gewimmert und gebettelt und es hat so lange gedauert, bis endlich jemand was gemacht hat.

Klar, dass sie diese Horde nicht vertreiben konnten, aber mich wegbringen, wenn ich selbst keinen Meter weit komme ohne mich fast vor Ekel zu bekotzen... bah.


Ich versteh das nicht... ich bitte nicht oft um Hilfe und schon gar nicht bei Lappalien, aber die Tatsache, dass Freunde von mir, Leute, denen ich wirklich vertrau, es nicht ernst nehmen, wenn ich hysterisch schreie und weine, das ist wirklich schlimm.

Konnte die halbe Nacht nich pennen, weil mich das so fertig gemacht hat.


Dann so ein Kommentar wie "du sahst so süß aus, als du auf dem Boden gekauert hast" O____________O

Wenn mich mal einer abschlachtet, siehts dann bestimmt auch voll cute aus, wenn ich mit einem abgehackten Arm jaulend durch die Gegend renne.

Nur weils blöde Käfer waren ey... T__T

[decembersong.livejournal.com]

dude,that's scary. and I don't mean you running around like crazy but rather no-one paying attention o__O; I mean, it's not like you'd be doing that every day...

And I can assure you, if spiders would fly, I would do the crazy girl on a regular basis. I'm scared shitless whenever one of these ugly disgusting beasts gets too close to me <_<; once I had one in my room and after I screamed, hopped on my bed and cried a little I finally picked up my slipper and hit it like 20 times before I acknowledged that poor little spot on my wall wouldn't do me any harm <_<; maybe it got a little better by now, but I'd still freak out if one of these things would LAND ON ME. so, you're not alone. you just happen to be so unlucky that "your" bugs can fly *patt*

[silberblut.livejournal.com]

Yeah that's it. o_O
If I was looking only a quarter like I felt yesterday, I must've been a little hump of whimpering.
Gah. :(


Ah omg I can understand you completely. I'm not scared of spiders or anything, but I rescued people often enough who have those problems with them.

Tse, I donnu where it comes from, that such little things creep us out.. but oh my, I wish it'd stop.

[herr-pet0r.livejournal.com]

Kotzt immer richtig an, wenn Leute kommen mit ihrem "Die armen Tiere tun dir doch nichts :DDD".
Ich hab ne totale Panik vor Motten. Hab teilweise schon im Wohnzimmer auf der Couch geschlafen, weil ich eine im Zimmer hatte...
Und ich mein, ja, ist mir klar, dass ich theoretisch stärker bin, aber das hilft in dem Moment dann auch nicht viel. :| Ich finds scheiße, wenn andere Leute Ängste unterschätzen, nur weil sie sie selbst nicht haben. Vor allem, wenns Leute sind, die einem eigentlich nahestehen.

[messiah-noire.livejournal.com]

I'm really sorry to hear that evening turned out so bad for you. :( While I'm quite annoyed with those stupid bugs, I'm luckily not afraid of them. ^^' Still, I find it awful that your friends didn't help you sooner! *hugs*

I think people who don't have something they're afraid of so much, simply don't understand it...
I, for example, go completely mental when there's a spider around. By now I'm fine with the tiny ones, but the big dark hairy ones... oh my gosh... I go straight into hysterics!
There was one time, already a few years ago, when two of my friends took me to the cinema. They wouldn't tell me what film we were going to watch, only that I would like it very much. I was actually quite looking forward to that surprise, because there was only one film I didn't want to watch, and I had already told them about it. That film was Arac Attack, the one with the huge mutated spiders... I suppose you can guess what we watched?!
While my two best friends since primary school couldn't stop laughing - because the film was so bad and funny?! - I spent the entire movie cowered in my seat crying silently. I was still crying and shaking when we left the cinema...
I know it would have been only reasonable if I had simply stood up after realising which film we were watching, and had left the room... but while you start running around, I get practically paralysed. :|
So... I feel with you! <3

[salzstreuerin.livejournal.com]

Just wanted to say, that we didn't ignore you or anything. We sat on that hill and cringed and wanted to help right from the beginning. It's just that Stephan said we shouldn't and we didn't really know what to do anyway.
Despite it may have seemed different, we really cared but we didn't know how bad it really was.

Anna

[silberblut.livejournal.com]

Hm.

Das hing wohl mit meiner Überreaktion vom letzten Mal zusammen, als er, ohne das bös zu meinen lachte, und ich ihm gesagt hab, er soll mich in Ruhe lassen (wenn er nur lacht). :(

Ich war so wütend, weil das einzige, was ich von euch gehört hab, war Lachen oder Kristins "Sie steht da aber auch mittendrin..."
Und ich dachte nur: Ja, dann holt mich doch bitte raus?!

Ach ich weiß nicht, vielleicht erwarte ich auch einfach zu viel. Is ja nich so, dass man täglich jemanden durchdrehen sieht.

Urgh. :(
Tut mir leid.