It sounds like spring out there...
Apr. 7th, 2008 01:21 pm...
But inside there's silence.
No little birds cheeping in my ears, no flowers sprouting in my mind, no green flashlights in front of my eyes.
Hm... I don't feel like spring... or maybe I actually do, but something's missing?!
Donnu how to explain, but somehow I've the feeling that there's a huge hole in my chest, longing to be filled with... something.
Love? Oh c'mon...
Hate? No need.
Happiness? Kinda... it's there, but..
Sadness? No - no - it's just...
Maybe I'm lacking of feeling at all?
I feel something - indeed. But it's strange and... uncomfortable, somehow.
I just want to hide in there. I just wanna be someone, which is impossible - I know, but...
Fack. I wanna be creative, but I can't >> lack of money. Fack.
I wanna have a job, but I can't bring myself to go out.
Hide. Hide. Hide.
University starts today. Lucky me ~ has only one lecture today from 5-7 p.m.. Nice ^^"
But hmmm...
I don't feel like doing anything. I just wanna whine and think about being somebody else?!
... cut out. I'll stop here.
Thanks for reading.
[EDIT: Oh my o_O;; I knew it. Must be the date. Definitely!]
But inside there's silence.
No little birds cheeping in my ears, no flowers sprouting in my mind, no green flashlights in front of my eyes.
Hm... I don't feel like spring... or maybe I actually do, but something's missing?!
Donnu how to explain, but somehow I've the feeling that there's a huge hole in my chest, longing to be filled with... something.
Love? Oh c'mon...
Hate? No need.
Happiness? Kinda... it's there, but..
Sadness? No - no - it's just...
Maybe I'm lacking of feeling at all?
I feel something - indeed. But it's strange and... uncomfortable, somehow.
I just want to hide in there. I just wanna be someone, which is impossible - I know, but...
Fack. I wanna be creative, but I can't >> lack of money. Fack.
I wanna have a job, but I can't bring myself to go out.
Hide. Hide. Hide.
University starts today. Lucky me ~ has only one lecture today from 5-7 p.m.. Nice ^^"
But hmmm...
I don't feel like doing anything. I just wanna whine and think about being somebody else?!
... cut out. I'll stop here.
Thanks for reading.
[EDIT: Oh my o_O;; I knew it. Must be the date. Definitely!]