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Hello out there, here comes a short conclusion of this year's LBM.
To cut things short: It was the worst convention I ever had.
Not because of the con itself, not because of the people I hang around with... no.
Actually it was quite cool to have Fynn around and to meet up with Eric and Tom on Friday.
The cosplay competition was fine, too.
Had some fun with the other jury-members and later went around with Alex and then I met Franzi and Duc.
Sunday was okay, too.
Said hello to several ppl and hang out with Kasu.
All fine.... except: myself.
I never felt so utterly shitty during a convention.
If this should happen again, I will cancel on people.. because I don't want them to see me like this. I tried to keep things to myself, but sometimes, there were little break outs, I couldn't stop.
Uhm.. sorry again for that. >__<
What happened?
My cosplay was a mess. I mean.. a real mess.
I always tend to put things back, until a night before the convention, but everything worked out in the end.. well not everything, at least not this time.
Kaname's blouse was a horrible thing to do.
Actually it is not THAT difficult to make... I think.. and I already bought new fabrics to try it again, but last week was so full of emotional tohuwabohu that I wasn't able to handle it.
>____>
Cosplay drama, oh là là!
And.. well I wasn't in mood for a convention, to be honest. It was good to go there, because otherwise I would've spent the weekend at home being all gloomy, but it was hard not to whine and grump every second about how much things piss me off at the moment. ^^°°°
Yeah well... and I came to another conclusion.
I wrote an entry some weeks ago, saying that I feel something "serious" happened and that I hope I will manage it without crying... well I didn't.
I don't know how long this will last, but right now I feel like:
YOU CAN PRETTY PLZ GO AND FUCK YOURSELF NOW, THX, BYE!
I hate it when I don't get any feedback. I wasn't pushing things, I did nothing wrong.
But instead of being that cowardly asshole, you could've just said: No, thanks.
It would've been so much easier.
Yeah well.. maybe you're shy or didn't get it until now... but if so.. oh my, I don't need someone who does not sense and care about me.
(You won't read this anyway, but it feels better to adress you directly, at least here.. for I don't want to talk to you until... well it's unadvoidable.)
Ah yeah... that's the situation in short terms.
Right now I'm happy to have a work, where I don't need to handle people all day long and I'm being a good girl, learning for next week's re-exam.
If I should be harsh and bitchy the next time, pls try to ignore it, okay?
I'm sorry if this should hurt you.. but right now I just want to kick someones' asses.. no matter whose.
Over and out.
Take care.
To cut things short: It was the worst convention I ever had.
Not because of the con itself, not because of the people I hang around with... no.
Actually it was quite cool to have Fynn around and to meet up with Eric and Tom on Friday.
The cosplay competition was fine, too.
Had some fun with the other jury-members and later went around with Alex and then I met Franzi and Duc.
Sunday was okay, too.
Said hello to several ppl and hang out with Kasu.
All fine.... except: myself.
I never felt so utterly shitty during a convention.
If this should happen again, I will cancel on people.. because I don't want them to see me like this. I tried to keep things to myself, but sometimes, there were little break outs, I couldn't stop.
Uhm.. sorry again for that. >__<
What happened?
My cosplay was a mess. I mean.. a real mess.
I always tend to put things back, until a night before the convention, but everything worked out in the end.. well not everything, at least not this time.
Kaname's blouse was a horrible thing to do.
Actually it is not THAT difficult to make... I think.. and I already bought new fabrics to try it again, but last week was so full of emotional tohuwabohu that I wasn't able to handle it.
>____>
Cosplay drama, oh là là!
And.. well I wasn't in mood for a convention, to be honest. It was good to go there, because otherwise I would've spent the weekend at home being all gloomy, but it was hard not to whine and grump every second about how much things piss me off at the moment. ^^°°°
Yeah well... and I came to another conclusion.
I wrote an entry some weeks ago, saying that I feel something "serious" happened and that I hope I will manage it without crying... well I didn't.
I don't know how long this will last, but right now I feel like:
YOU CAN PRETTY PLZ GO AND FUCK YOURSELF NOW, THX, BYE!
I hate it when I don't get any feedback. I wasn't pushing things, I did nothing wrong.
But instead of being that cowardly asshole, you could've just said: No, thanks.
It would've been so much easier.
Yeah well.. maybe you're shy or didn't get it until now... but if so.. oh my, I don't need someone who does not sense and care about me.
(You won't read this anyway, but it feels better to adress you directly, at least here.. for I don't want to talk to you until... well it's unadvoidable.)
Ah yeah... that's the situation in short terms.
Right now I'm happy to have a work, where I don't need to handle people all day long and I'm being a good girl, learning for next week's re-exam.
If I should be harsh and bitchy the next time, pls try to ignore it, okay?
I'm sorry if this should hurt you.. but right now I just want to kick someones' asses.. no matter whose.
Over and out.
Take care.
