Hello out there, here comes a short conclusion of this year's LBM.

To cut things short: It was the worst convention I ever had.
Not because of the con itself, not because of the people I hang around with... no.
Actually it was quite cool to have Fynn around and to meet up with Eric and Tom on Friday.
The cosplay competition was fine, too.
Had some fun with the other jury-members and later went around with Alex and then I met Franzi and Duc.
Sunday was okay, too.
Said hello to several ppl and hang out with Kasu.
All fine.... except: myself.

I never felt so utterly shitty during a convention.

If this should happen again, I will cancel on people.. because I don't want them to see me like this. I tried to keep things to myself, but sometimes, there were little break outs, I couldn't stop.
Uhm.. sorry again for that. >__<

What happened?
My cosplay was a mess. I mean.. a real mess.
I always tend to put things back, until a night before the convention, but everything worked out in the end.. well not everything, at least not this time.
Kaname's blouse was a horrible thing to do.
Actually it is not THAT difficult to make... I think.. and I already bought new fabrics to try it again, but last week was so full of emotional tohuwabohu that I wasn't able to handle it.
>____>
Cosplay drama, oh là là!

And.. well I wasn't in mood for a convention, to be honest. It was good to go there, because otherwise I would've spent the weekend at home being all gloomy, but it was hard not to whine and grump every second about how much things piss me off at the moment. ^^°°°

Yeah well... and I came to another conclusion.
I wrote an entry some weeks ago, saying that I feel something "serious" happened and that I hope I will manage it without crying... well I didn't.
I don't know how long this will last, but right now I feel like:
YOU CAN PRETTY PLZ GO AND FUCK YOURSELF NOW, THX, BYE!

I hate it when I don't get any feedback. I wasn't pushing things, I did nothing wrong.
But instead of being that cowardly asshole, you could've just said: No, thanks.
It would've been so much easier.

Yeah well.. maybe you're shy or didn't get it until now... but if so.. oh my, I don't need someone who does not sense and care about me.

(You won't read this anyway, but it feels better to adress you directly, at least here.. for I don't want to talk to you until... well it's unadvoidable.)

Ah yeah... that's the situation in short terms.
Right now I'm happy to have a work, where I don't need to handle people all day long and I'm being a good girl, learning for next week's re-exam.

If I should be harsh and bitchy the next time, pls try to ignore it, okay?
I'm sorry if this should hurt you.. but right now I just want to kick someones' asses.. no matter whose.

Over and out.
Take care.

lol, this day full of shit turned out to be gorgeous.

Why?

See this:
Games Convention Online started today. Unfortunately I felt so damn tired, because yesterday, when Jule came over for a short visit, we met up with Stephan, Bine and Martin in a little park nearby and wasted ourselves. Weell.. this was good, actually.. only the morning after... hmmm xD;;;
Okay, nevertheless, I went to the GCO and although I had to cope with the fact, that the convention really got smaller (which was obvious because of the new concept and those bastards in Cologne *coughs*) my first impressions are quite good.
I don't play online anymore.. I never was a real online gamer anyway, but I saw some very good-looking games today. Unfortunately I'm a coward and didn't test them, yet.
Yes! I always feel shy and scared when it comes to gaming in public? Why? Because I always think, that if I fail (because I don't get the controlling right or whatever at the beginning) people will laugh at me. Especially men. Because.. yeees I'm only a stupid girl, who likes games. >__>
<--- I know, this is nonsense, but I can't bring myself to don't give a shit about that. ^^°°

So... DUDES! When you see me tomorrow, please tug me to the next PC and force me to play, thank you very much.
(The persons of the stands must think I'm a total sociophobic psycho, because I only stared and never talked to anyone. xD"")

Ah.. well I got famous today... or at least something like this must've happened.

1st: I got molested by a drunk bastard, when I was sitting in the Community Hall and watching the band. When this weirdo sat next to me and leant over I jumped and told him to piss off, but he didn't listen and came nearer. I was so enraged if he would've continued, I would've killed him right away. Anyway, I went to the technicians, whose little stand was slightly behind me and asked for help. The dude there was super friendly and told me to stay with him until that bastard left.
Argh.. sometimes I ask myself why I'm always so nice and cool, when people piss me off. I so wanted to slap this bastard.. but uh oh.. the public.. haha ;)

2nd Hendrik from City Comics was my chauffeur back into the city in the evening, because I needed to change clothes and eat something. He brought Linda back home and then picked me up again for the concerts. Whooo! I was able to get into the convention by the exhibitor's entrance.

3rd When the last band started playing, Reisegruppe Fischer is their name, btw check 'em out! ... eehm well, when they started there were only hmm let's say 5 ordinary GCO-visitors in the hall and the staff + band (friends) and so.. whouh! I was invited to dance with the band on stage. Hahah there was one other girl and one of the catering women. Awesome! Later other people came back into the hall as well.. but we weren't more than 30 people.. so it got a private jam-session ;D
It's sad, that so many people left the con so early. DUDES! Tomorrow is another row of concerts! Come and watch, the bands are really worth it!
The ones I saw today, were amazing! I only can remember one other name, which was "Das Action Team", but I saw 4 other bands, too. Gnah!

4th Since tomorrow.. or let's say.. later today I have to be early @ the GCO again for the cosplay competition, I decided to leave around 12 p.m. When I got outside there was a big shuttle bus waiting and random taxis. I went to the bus driver and asked till which station he would go and he said: "Where do you want to go?" I told him where I lived but that the main station would be okay, anyway. And he was like.. "Are there others coming?" I said, no because a DJ just had started to play and he was like: "Okay, get in. I'll take you home!"
DUDES! That guy drove me in a fucking shuttle bus straight to my front door! Hahah.. Gorgeous!

So... although I was and still am damn tired and had some weird experiences today, it was just oaaah so cool. Hohoho! But I guess Murphy's law will hit me anyway.
I bet tomorrow I have to walk home or something. ;D

Anyway... I have to sleep now, can't keep my eyes open anymore.
Have a good night, dudes!
<3

Hello folks!

It's been a while since my last entry and finally, I found the time to write again.
( RL and stuff )

( Home & Shumatsu )

... and now, finally, I've found the time to write an entry about the Connichi aaand my week :)

( connichi bla+pics+random bla )

2 weeks till Connichi and I'm SCARED!

Eric phoned today and told me that yesterday he SUDDENLY realized, that his school trip collapses with the Connichi. SUDDENLY! MAAAAAN we fixed the tickets/hotel blah in January/March O_O;;;;
Hmmm now he's trying to find a solution to come to Kassel on Saturday (at least)
I hope he will manage it - firstly it would be truly sad not to have him around, secondly I'm simply not able to pay his money back for the hotel and ticket... I mean, I would find persons who'd need a ticket, but aaah ~~~
But he said, since it's his fault, that he didn't notice the coincidence, he wouldn't expect me to pay him back. What's even more shitty, cause I would feel bad for it >____<~~~
Gnaaaah, I hope he will make it.

Scared, the 2nd: I'm afraid of sewing the frills to my blouse - today I tried to make some and I totally failed (okay, it was bitchy fabrics, but still.. aaaaahm >____<)

Haaaah, but I have to do it! Go, go Qan! Don't be scared! xD;

What's good?
The weekend was awesome! AWESOME! It was so much fun to have my cosplay-group around~ aaah I feel so good for I've asked in the forum to make a group. It seems we fit perfectly together - there is no whining, no stress, no uber-pressure - only the fun in cosplaying and acting. YOSH!
We did rehearses and also took the recording for our performance. Right now I'm still working on cutting and putting it together~
It's just so senseless... and dorky and waaaah FUN!
If some you attend the Connichi and will be able to see the Cosplay-Contest on Saturday - plz watch us! :D~

Today my make-up for Rhode arrived and I tried it. WOAAAH *_* I had fear, that it would schmear (OMG! This word actually exists. LOL!! Love it!) but it does not! If I put some hair spray on it, it will be longlasting like the tortures of hell xD;
Fielmann also called and said, that my contacts are there... hmmm btw, I should go there and get 'em xD;

What else? Aww~ hmm I'm not in mood for posting all the G|C-photos anymore. The whining on animexx ennerved me too much. If some of you want to see them, anyway, go HERE.

Aaaand uuuuhm... this is for abulic_puppet since you wanted to see a photo of me as Naminé, here you gooo:

(photo taken by Dante Thanks again <3)

That'd be all for now - bye, bye, dudes!

Wuhuuuuuuuuuuuuu~~~~

Just now I finished it. Fleur's clothes are FINISHED.
YOSH!!
And they look super awesome xD; at least this is what I think <3<3<3<3

Wuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuhuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu~~~~

I'm totally hyper XD;
But since there was no time to learn till now, I decided not to go to the LBM tomorrow... or at least I will only go a few hours, since I paid for my all-days-ticket ^^~~~

Anyway... I need something to eat nooow *____*;;;
Didn't eat since breakfast *cough*

SEE YOU on LBM <3~

I won't be online this much the next days.
*kisses and a huuuuuuuuuge hug*